Walking home, every moment of mine was spent thinking Marcus is practicing and I am not. Suddenly everything that I practiced was in doubt for me, my jumper, alley-op, layup everything was going to doubt by myself. No one else telling me that my game was bad yet I felt I am not good. I felt anger, rage, and couldn't think why my own moves were in self-doubt.
When I came home I never spoke a word about it to anyone, because for me I had to solve the problem that I am facing. After I just went into my room and start talking to myself and I was talking all about Marcus and why I am less than him. After a while, I started writing every feeling down.
I wrote everything down on the piece of paper from me feeling sad to feeling angry over mom for not allowing me to play ball. It filled about 3 pages of my book and it was very hurtful. I took out all of my rages, emotion onto the page, that now I felt light-hearted. Everything that I had been feeling was out-as if I had let it all out and spoken it to someone.
So I kept writing and writing and writing about everything. After a while I felt happy, sad, anger, pain, joy, winning, losing, everything of it was written every single day. This helped me to understand myself better, my emotions better, and whatever that I am feeling just to let it all out.
Exam arrived as the days passed away quick and finally my count down to play again begins.
56 days for the league.
Lesson- Start writing everything about what you are feeling.
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