League progressed further and further. We went from some winning to dominating the entire league. At that point, my frustration and anger were all coming out. We were winning that's all that mattered to me. My belief system went from being okay to achieving anything with my anger and frustration. The trauma of the past, the divorce of my family, sister going away, all vanished whenever I stepped onto the court.
Then came Phil Andrews. The player tearing the league up. I was up against him next match. At the start of the match, I hit a jumper and twisted my ankle. I was limping. With nothing to stop Phil from taking us out, I decided to stay on the court. So I iced myself for a couple of plays & I came back in. The coach saw something, and he benched me. 1 week later, I saw the news flash, Phil got transferred- mid-season! He now plays for our Arch rivals. 2 matches later he comes out in the arena.
This time I was not going to be iced, benched, sprained, or any other things. I was ready from my body to take him down. We came head to head, body to body, shot to shot, point to point and my last bucket, he said, " This all you got. That's why you have no one. " I stopped. I became a 14-year-old boy, who lost his family, friends, and everyone in the process of being successful.
All the memories came back. My mind was running in the loop of the same memory. As if someone has put a video and set it on repeat. I couldn't come back. My body was playing, my mind was back with my family.
I lost!
Lesson: Don't run away from your memories. Sooner or later you have to deal with it!
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